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Neha 10 year old papa ki death ho gayi

Life ka sabse bada jhatka isse bada life mein koi jhatka ho hi nhi sakta. JisΒ  age mein pyar chahiye hota hai uss age mein pyar ki jagah ye sab milna life bahut tough ho jaati hai..MeeraΒ  18th ki ho gayi college jaane lagi ussi doraan ek ladka pichhe pad gaya..daily pichha krna torture krna kabhi kaan pr katta rakh dena maarne ki dhamki dena uthane ki dhamki dena..mtlb college jana to dur ki baat ghr se bahar nikalne se darne lagi thi…jb bhi college jaane ke liye ghr se bahar kadam rkhti thi torone lagti thi mummy ko hamesa lgta tha ye college jaana hi nhi chahati..3 sal aise hi torture hone k baad uske ghr pahuch gayi uske ghr jaake uske papa se bolke aayi..bolke nhi dhamki deke aayi..lekin tb tk maai bahut depressed ho chuki thi..2 sal pura depression mein rhi ghr mein sab pagal bolne lage the..meri harkate paglo wali ho gyi thi..chhoti chhoti baat pr rone chijo ko todna bahut buri halat ho gyi thi meri…2 sal baad main depression se bahar aayi 22 ki ho chuki thi.. matlb papa ki death ke baad life change hi ho gyi bilkul logo ke taane sunna ladko ka torture krna..asaan nhi hota itna bardast krna..insaan ander se puri tarah mar jaata hai.. jab wo 3 sal torture hui na jaane kitni baar suicide krne ka mann bna liya tha..par ek aim bnaya tha 10th ki age mein…jisne mujhe suicide krne se kai baar rok diya..ye sb bhul ke main normal ho gyi.. 22 ki thi to ek din achanak se ek ladke ki facebook pr friend request aayi..maine accept kr li.. uska msg aaya maine bhi reply kr diya…pta chla wo coaching mein hi jisme main padhti hu wo mujhe jaanta hai pr main usse nhi jaanti… Usne bola tu ladki bahut acchi hai..I like you… mujhe laga mazak karra hoga.. Maine ignore maara..aise hi baat hoti rhi.. phr maine usko ek din first time real mein dekha merko theek laga face se nhi nature se…main usko internally pasnd pyar krne lagi..merko usse jo bhi hua internally hua..merko usse real mein pyar ho gya…phr hum 2-3 baar mile.. relationship mein aa gaye the hum..phr milne k liye baat hoti mil hi nahi paate…issi baat pr bol chaal bnd ho gyi kuch din ko.. ek sal tak bs hi hello hoti rhi ek sal tak nhi mile. Uske ek saal baad uska msg aaya raat k ek bje…Hi meera Milne ka mann krra hai…maine puchha kyo…bola pta nhi kyo..Bs itti baat hui uske baad baat hui thode time baad… Maine usko msg kiya..Hi Robin kaisa hai tu..usne bola badhiya..Maine puccha kahan hai tu..bola dilli hu..maine kaha main bhi dilli hu..

Phr agle din milne ki baat hui..main Rajiv Chowk gayi uski hamesa late aane ki aadat hai 1 ghanta wait kiya uske baad wo aaya sath mein ankit bhi tha uska best friend..hum ek sal baad mile jun 2018 mein..uske baad hum pragati maidan gaye teeno khoob maze kiye..bahut hasaya usne…accha din tha uske baad hum dono agle din mile…hum relationship mein aa chuke the.. phr aise hi baat hoti main usse msg krti to hamesa late reply krta..usne kabhi phn ya msg nhi kiya..main usse baat krne k liye tarasti..milne k liye tarasti..pr wo pathar dil insaan hai usko apne kaam se pyar hai..koi kitna wait kr le usko frk nhi padta..mujhe lagne laga uske ander kabhi feelings thi hi nhi mere liye… wo bs free tha to is liye apna time paas kar raha hai jaise hi job lgi change ho gya excuses dene laga…main puri tarah hurt ho gyi…kyoki pehle bhi main hurt ho chiki hu depression mein reh chuki hu… finally maine bhi move on kr liya.. move on to kr liya but depressed ho gayi hurt ho gyi mentally bhi or physically bhi…24 ki hu main again depressed ho gayi..papa ki death k baad in 14 salo mein kabhi pyar naseeb nhi hua…ye hai meri awesome life…meri frnds ko lgta hai main bahut maze ki life jeeti hu..pr main apni life ko depressed ho ho ke jeeti hu…

MeeraπŸ™‚

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Shayari

wo subha na jaane kab hogi…

jab sath tu hoga pr teri yaad nhi hogi…

jab tere sath teri hi baat par har baat hogi..

wo subha na jaane kab hogi…

Meera Kumar!!

Poetry

main mohabbat tujhtukhae mse kr to lu, par kahin tu rooth na jaaye..

main thodi door tere sath chal tu lu, par kahin tu pichhe chhut na jaaye..

main bas thodi der tera hath pakad kr baith jaau,par kahin tu hath chhod na jaaye…

main tujhse nazre to mila lu, par darr tu kahin nazre jhuka to na jaaye..

Socha dil laga baithu tujhe se, par darr bhi hai tu dil kahin toud na jaaye..

Itna asaan nhi tujhse mohhabat karna, kahin tu bich majdhaar mein chhod na jaaye…

Meera Kumar!!